So sometimes I write poetry (or my form of it) to express my feelings. Below, I have attached entered two poems... the first, describes where I was a year ago, and the second, was written a couple of months ago. Hope you enjoy and are encouraged.
COLD & EMPTY
Cold
Why can't I feel it?
Empty
Why can't I be it?
Why must I feel this pain?
Why must I feel this anger?
Why won't it go away?
I just don't want to feel
Anything, anymore
I just want to be cold and empty
So that I don't get hurt ever again
How do I make it happen?
The alcohol, takes it away
But it always comes back
The laughter, takes it away
But it always comes back
The love of the children, takes it away
But the hurt always comes back
Just make it go away.
For good
Make it stay away
Make my heart never hurt again
Make my mind not have a thought
Of why… again
Why am I not worthy enough
Not pretty enough
Not smart enough
Not young enough
Not strong enough
Why am I not enough?
Finding Everything
Walking aimlessly through life
In this world of loneliness
Seeking love and guidance
Searching for eternal bliss
Finding misery and hurt
Finding lies and deceit
Finding paths of emptiness
Everywhere I place my feet
Wondering why things are
Wanting things to change
Wishing things were easier
Trying to find my way
Until one majestic day
A message was shared with me
About a love that’s everlasting
And that elusive element of peace
A message of hope
That I’d been waiting for
Drifting through this life
Knowing there had to be more
The answer was always there
Only I was too blind to see
The answer was the King
Of the highest Majesty
The message was clear
Jesus gave his life
For me to live eternally
And leave behind the strife
The message was powerful
Filled with mercy and grace
About my savior’s dying
Dying to take my place
My Holy Father was waiting
He was calling me all along
Wanting me to find His love
Wanting me to see I belong
I am in His arms now
His peace and joy abound
He is my comfort and my solace
My Everything has been found
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Tempted...yet again
1 Corinthians 10:13 (nlt)
But remember, the temptations that come into your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will keep the temptation from becoming so strong that you can’t stand up against it. When you are tempted, He will show you a way out, so you will not give in to it.
Even though I have changed a lot in the last 6 months, and we just had this verse in SOD, it seems I’ve already forgotten. Satan has been sitting here throwing at me all of the temptations that used to cause me to fail at being obedient to God. In the past, my flesh would win the battle. As I sit here and struggle with these things YET AGAIN, I can’t help but think, am I paying attention.
Let’s review (if you care to). First, I must remember that the temptations are things we all face. Mine may come in a different form, but they’re no different than yours. Next, God is faithful. How often this statement is forgotten. When things get rough, we turn to God, but do we truly believe he will help? He is faithful, and He does come through.
Now these next points are extremely important when dealing temptation. For me, anyhow. He will keep the temptation from being too strong for me to resist. Well, this brings me to the point that God apparently knows I’m a lot stronger than I feel I am. I feel weak. I feel like I can’t do it. God is powerful. He gives us our power. I have that power within me. He has given us the power to stand up against it, and He won’t let it be more than we have power to resist. And He shows us a way out. I have found that normally, he gives us more than one way out. He opens doors all around to run the other way from the temptation. It then becomes our responsibility to either open the door of temptation and face the consequences, or open the door of righteousness. He has clearly stated that we have the ability to overcome the temptations through Him. So now I ask myself, what’s the problem then? He is faithful, and gives us the power to win against satan. I often forget the power I have within me through Christ. Even recently. I’m so glad that even in my failures He’s loving, full of grace and mercy. I’m glad for His instruction. He knew we’d all face this problem. He knows our weaknesses and how hard it is for us to overcome temptation in this fleshy world. So He left us this verse, so that we will know, we are His children and He takes care of us. Sometimes, we just need to pay attention.
But remember, the temptations that come into your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will keep the temptation from becoming so strong that you can’t stand up against it. When you are tempted, He will show you a way out, so you will not give in to it.
Even though I have changed a lot in the last 6 months, and we just had this verse in SOD, it seems I’ve already forgotten. Satan has been sitting here throwing at me all of the temptations that used to cause me to fail at being obedient to God. In the past, my flesh would win the battle. As I sit here and struggle with these things YET AGAIN, I can’t help but think, am I paying attention.
Let’s review (if you care to). First, I must remember that the temptations are things we all face. Mine may come in a different form, but they’re no different than yours. Next, God is faithful. How often this statement is forgotten. When things get rough, we turn to God, but do we truly believe he will help? He is faithful, and He does come through.
Now these next points are extremely important when dealing temptation. For me, anyhow. He will keep the temptation from being too strong for me to resist. Well, this brings me to the point that God apparently knows I’m a lot stronger than I feel I am. I feel weak. I feel like I can’t do it. God is powerful. He gives us our power. I have that power within me. He has given us the power to stand up against it, and He won’t let it be more than we have power to resist. And He shows us a way out. I have found that normally, he gives us more than one way out. He opens doors all around to run the other way from the temptation. It then becomes our responsibility to either open the door of temptation and face the consequences, or open the door of righteousness. He has clearly stated that we have the ability to overcome the temptations through Him. So now I ask myself, what’s the problem then? He is faithful, and gives us the power to win against satan. I often forget the power I have within me through Christ. Even recently. I’m so glad that even in my failures He’s loving, full of grace and mercy. I’m glad for His instruction. He knew we’d all face this problem. He knows our weaknesses and how hard it is for us to overcome temptation in this fleshy world. So He left us this verse, so that we will know, we are His children and He takes care of us. Sometimes, we just need to pay attention.
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